A Charcuterie Board of Thoughts

I started off this post with the various "voices" I try to write in, but now I'm having a hard time trying to express myself on that front, and I have a bunch of other thoughts going on at the same time. So this will be a couple of different thoughts on one post.

Finding my Writing Voice:

Whenever I try to write something, there's always multiple voices trying to say the same thing, in different tones and styles. I can't tell which one of those is my true voice these days. Those voices are:

Casual, but intellectual - Think of those personal essays from Substack or Medium at its peak. It feels matter-of-fact, and a little sassy.

Memer - quirky TikTokers and IG influencers spouting off jokes they found off of Tumblr posts and tweets

Jaded/cynical - Being on the outside looking in, and feeling like every single trend or Big Thing either just blows up or fades away (because I've seen it happen enough times in the 15+ years I've used social media (and the internet as a whole for even longer) to know that's what usually happens.

It seems like those voices are all trying to seep into my writing. Even when I narrow it down, I'm immediately thinking "God, you're so FAKE you're writing the same way EVERYONE is writing their stuff!" I think this is just something I'll have to work through as I write more.

 Resolutions: 

Having read Stevie K's post about her day and the resolutions she's been making, I've been thinking about how I approach them. In previous years, I felt like I had to get on the ball with them or else it just won't happen. But recently, I've been trying to be a little kinder to myself, and I realized that I don't really have to start on all of these now. I don't even have to start them in January. I'm just coming off from the holidays, I'll be working in the office again tomorrow after working remote for the past two weeks, and work is probably going to pick up again. Just re-orienting myself and getting some rest feels more important. I've started on some easier resolutions just so I can try out some different things, but overall I just want to chill out a bit before I act on anything big.

 Some of the resolutions I have are: 

• Read at least 15 books
• Eat more veggies and fruits
• Finish at least two of my notebooks
• Move out of my parents' house
• Use up my crafting supplies before getting new ones.
• Be more assertive 

Some of these are easier and take less time than others, so I don't have to pressure myself to start now. Just gradually including things and not being afraid to screw up are probably going to be what gets me to finish a good chunk of these.

Foals 4evahhhh 

One thing I look forward to at the beginning of the year is when my favorite bands and singers post about working on music. Because more than likely, they're putting something out this year. Case in point, my favorite band in the last few years, Foals, announced that they were working on a new record. Now THAT is a Christmas present I've been wanting, because their last album came out three and a half years ago and they've been pretty quiet ever since... I'm SO. HYPED. This is probably embarrassing to say at my age, but for the past year I've been having dreams about them putting out new music, so to actually have this in reality? Yay, I'm no longer being taunted in my dreams <333 

I listened to Lolo Zouai for the first time in a while and forgot how much I liked her music, and she also announced that she's turned in her new album. It'll be a bit before we hear anything, but I'm very excited to see it what that brings us. My fingers are crossed that Robyn's new album is coming out this year, because I LOVED Dopamine and I really want to hear more! I'm also trying to manifest more music from Mitski, Sofia Isella, and Chloe Qisha, but we'll see how that turns out. Lol!

Bits and Bobs 

- Something that I missed from Deviantart (yes, I was on dA as a teenager, big mistake) was getting to list what you were currently listening to/reading/drinking etc. I might do something like that on here. Not sure how I want to organize it though.

- I'm EXTREMELY tempted to buy the Tamagotchi Paradise Jade Forest. I have the ocean type but I love the animals on the Jade Forest so much ;__; but I'm trying to do a no-spend for the first few months of the year, so that will have to be for later.

- I think using one of my many notebooks as a place to jot down blog ideas would be the way to go. Once I finished writing about the writing voices it actually started to get easier to write this particular post, but it'll be nice to have a separate place to list the ones I want to write about and expand on those

 I think I'll cut it here for now, so here's a funny dog video to finish up this blog!