I was going to start this by saying I didn't do a good enough job of preparing for this week, but I don't think ANYTHING could have prepared me for it.
Work was a roller coaster. Some days were quiet, other days were off the walls. Just people trying to get their shit together in the new year but then take it out on us when we can't give them what they want. You would think, nearing four years in this current job, that I'd get better with dealing with people. But it still feels like I'm stuck in fawn mode! It doesn't help anyone and it certainly doesn't help me :/
I've also been dealing with a mystery illness (or maybe allergy). All of a sudden, my left eye is watery and extremely sensitive to the light, my nose is runny, I woke up yesterday with a headache, and my vision just seems... off. I don't know how to describe it except that I can see, but everything seems bleary. I got the worst of it when I woke up today, and I can't even lay in bed and watch TV without my eye getting watery. I had something like this around Christmas time but it got better before New Years, so I don't know if there's some sort of allergen pestering me, or if I'm getting a mystery illness. Either way, I'm getting very tired of it! and that's on top of all the other bullshit that's happened this week that isn't in my immediate control. I'm trying not to start 2026 off on the wrong foot when it comes to things I can control but... I don't know. It might be an uphill battle which is why I'm glad I'm not prioritizing resolutions until February.
I also realize that perusing through Substack on topics that are rather sensitive to me might not help with my mood. I don't know, anything to do with dating, womanhood, and adulthood in general really mess with me. I know I have to read stuff that makes me uncomfortable, but there are things I read that remind that I'm Not Normal. But that's a whole other can of worms that I'm not sure I want to open on here.
Anyway, moving away from the rough parts of the week, here are the nicer parts of the week!
Last Friday, I went with some of my relatives to take pictures of the Christmas lights at the zoo before they were taken down for the season. It'd been a couple of years since I've been there, and I haven't been able to take pictures with my digital camera. I've want to pick up photography again, so that was as good a time to do it. I'm planning on submitting one or two of these to a contest at my photography club. But here's one I'll share (if it looks weird, I was trying to sharpen it because unfortunately some of the pictures came out blurry. I 'm using GIMP for the first time in years so I'm still working on it.
I'm also very excited for Robyn's new album. Loved "Talk to Me" and "Sexistential" was a grower. I wasn't sure about the latter at first, but I remember that she's always had goofy and sexy lyrics, and the line "I like to go out, wear something nice, and PUSH!" has been in my head for the past few days. So at least there's that!
Hopefully once I feel better I'll post at least once a week. I think I'm starting to get used to blogging on here but I don't have enough stuff going on to blog every day (at least for now...)
Catch you guys later!
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